The Last 3 weeks

I wanted to take some time to document my relactation journey in case I'm successfull and this will help other BF'ing ladies in their own personal journey.

When my baby girl was 4 months old, we went for our check up and she had fallen off the charts. So, I took charge, called my LC and got in right away. We put a plan in place (which included getting off the mini-pill) and that weekend I was going to do a nursing weekend. Well, on Dec. 12th, I got sick. I was throwing up and thought...great, here it is, the nasty stomach flu. The next days dragged on and by Tuesday, I was so dehydrated, I wasn't producing any milk. My friend took me to the ER and low and behold, my appendix ruptured. I had emergency surgery within 2 hours of being diagnosed since they thought I had ruptured it on Saturday. Needless to say, I was very, very sick and one more day, we're not sure what the outcome would be.

After 9 days in the hospital and a nasty bacteria infection, I finally was able to see my baby girl. I tried pumping in the hospital, but was so exhausted and sick, I made very little milk. By the time I came home with all my antibiotics, she had been on formula the whole time.

I was (and still am) completely heartbroken that I can't nurse. So, I decided, I will relactate. She's still refusing the breast (the bottle flow is sooo much better mommy...why oh why would I want this?!). I can't take a bath with her because of my incisions and our attempts at kangaroo and laying in bed together nakey have been unsuccessful...but that's ok. We're going to keep at it.

I went from not getting one drop when I pumped to getting 1/4 of an ounce at this point with each pumping. I'm taking more milk plus and pumping every 2-3 hours during the day with 2 "power hours" each day.

After consulting with my LC, we decided given all I've been through, it may be worth a shot to try Reglan or Domperidome. I'm hoping to get my OB to prescribe me domperidome because it seems to have less side-effects. I'm afraid of slipping into depression from the Reglan since I'm already struggling dealing with what had happened...and at Christmas too....with one present bought before I went in the hospital...my baby girl's first Christmas...I'm still heartbroken by all of this.

At this point, I have 1 3/4 oz. in the fridge. I'm hoping in the next few days to actually have a full bottle of BM to give to my girl. I hate this formula stuff. Her breath stinks, her pee stinks, her poo is, well, wow and she is a lot fussier on formula...much, much gassier.

I've been home from the hospital for 10 days now. Let's hope everyday yields more milk.